It’s May!

It’s May 9th, 2011. I’m feeling pretty good, I have a BIG show at the end of next week. I don’t think I have stepped up to the plate enough. I’m reminded of something Pastor Toure Roberts said about walking in boldness in THIS season. It’s time I step up and stop waiting on people to make things happen for me. I know, sounds odd coming from me, but sometimes even subconsciously, we wait on other people to make the first move to see what they’re going to do. I know there are people looking at me in that same way. Funny, huh. But when I think about how creatively dope I am, and my reason or purpose behind my actions– I HAVE to go HARD! It’s a must! and I certainly can’t afford to wait on other people.

So, I look forward to stepping into my TRUE role. Hopefully, I can forgive myself long enough to get this done and move on.

Forgive myself for what you ask? For waiting! #nomore. Now LETS GOOOOOO !

How Do YOU Know When It’s Your Moment?

You don’t. You could potentially be waiting your entire lifetime, on something great to happen to you, something extraordinary. It’s the moment you’ve dreamed about, you’ve prayed about, you’ve worked relentlessly for, WHEN is it going to happen! As the years go by, and you’re steady on your grind, you constantly sacrifice, but continuously miss out on countless birthdays, and holidays, and family gatherings and picnics, and class reunions, and any other monumental event that you can possibly think of—you miss out on, and your “moment” still hasn’t come. You feel it coming, people around you begin to feel like “something is about to happen”, a few more years go by, and nothing yet. Great experiences, sure—but not that moment you’ve been waiting for.

Time is important, how we spend it, and who we spend it with, is important. What I’ve discovered, is that “the” moment—is always NOW. It’s not always necessary to sacrifice as much as you do, you feel it’s necessary because you’re grinding, but in reality—your family needs to see you, your friends need to hear from you. Share the experiences leading to that great moment, with them.

Don’t be so caught up, striving for THE moment, that you don’t experience the beauty of the moment that you’re in.

Alkaline Booty, oops. BODY!

First video post. Talking about weight loss, bells palsy, casting—all that! Longer than 2 minutes, but keep in mind I created that rule AFTER doing this video.

I have been cooking!

YES! I have been in the TRAP! Cooking, working out, working—all that! I think I’ve come up with a solution to streamline my efforts and help me focus. First things first— writing the blogs—is a no go! I get enough writing in, dealing with scripts all day! & I don’t want to sit in front of a camera talking all day either—so I’ve decided I’ll video blog, but I’ll keep it to a minimum of 2 minutes per blog, unless it’s more episodic. I’ll have only 3 REAL websites—classybrown.com, virtugyrl.com, and moguliciousmedia.com. All the other sites will basically be landing pages for my projects, but they’ll all direct you back to my personal site, my business site, or my organization! Sounds like a good plan. Let’s try it out!

i WILL Cook!

So I had crusty hotdogs for dinner tonight—but tomorrow and twice a week for the rest of the year—I WILL COOK! So add that to my list of Relentlessness! This was inspired by a friend of mine who cooks—often! At least 4-5 days a week, she’s cooking full course meals. I cook breakfast, but nothing else really. And to be honest, my dinner menu is not very extensive, and needs work! I’ll be posting pics! Twice a week. Amidst writing, productions and community service projects, I can do that! #LETS GOOO 

Wooowwwsers !

So its been awhile, but I’ve been hand writing in my journal. Not too much is new, I wake up in the mornings wondering if “today” will be the day ! The day that I get an undeniable force of energy to change my life. Not that my life is bad, it’s pretty sweet, but I definitely want more. The hardest part is putting your head down to do what’s required.

 

I think today will be THAT day.

WHOA!

Ok, so it’s been a minute. #dontjudgeme! ;o) I’m picking Relentless for Millions back up! It’s been awhile, a lot has taken place. But it’s ALL good. I’m in a really good creative space right now, so I figured it’s the perfect time to pursue R4M! I have 7 strong projects and 3 sidelines to complete in 9 weeks! #LETs GO. Instead of categorizing them all, I’ll just blog on them as I’m working. Cool? Cool.

Tonight, I’m reading over information from the Red Cross for a speech I have to give next week on their progress in Haiti. I’m excited to be getting my behind back out. I took time off, because essentially, I needed it.

#random: It’s funny how people tend to think they know what’s best for you, but more often than not- if I don’t ask for your opinion, I probably don’t want it. Twice today, people are volunteering information. If I’m complaining or nagging to you about any one thing, then yeah.. offer your opinion and shut me up. But if I haven’t said anything, I’m obviously in a place of peace and contentment about the situation. Therefore “informate before you spectate” LOL #FREELILTUNECHI. Random thoughts as I was interrupted about some nonsense.

The awesome thing about growth and change, is that no one can do it for you. Live your own life. Even through much trial and error—as long as you’re living, you don’t have to worry about reaching your destiny. To live, your life.. is to live in your destiny! Don’t discount any of your experience! Your life was pre-destined. You feel off-course, you’re not. Embrace it. Learn. Grow. Change. Make a Difference. Live! Your.. life.

#thatsallfornow

Be Still and Know.

I woke up uber-early this morning! I intend to go get a good workout in too!! But I went to sleep last night complaining and wallowing in LA’s Real Estate market compared to other cities. It drives me crazy that the apartment I want here is 2,000 a month and I can get the same but slightly LARGER apartment for a fraction of the price in St. Louis for only 450! It really discourages me from finding a place in LA. Not to mention everywhere here is pretty over populated, if I was to get the apartment I want, in the community I want—low traffic, I could easily be looking upwards 3-4,000 a month. On an APARTMENT.

Anyway, so I woke up this morning feeling convicted about my “glacial” pace. I’ve been coasting in my comfort zone, perhaps had I not, I wouldn’t be complaining about rent prices.

And what kind of believer complains about anything really when you believe and know who God is. I was definitely tripping. So anyway, it’s time to pick up the pace and break through.

This AM I am thankful for this new consciousness.

Don’t ever find yourself waiting for the right time. It’s always right now. Even when you’re waiting on God, YOU should still be moving. More often than not, we think we’re waiting on him, but actually he’s just waiting on us.

So, LOOK TO THE ANT! Go be productive… produce results.

IDENTIFIED.

Artist, who write, sing, produce, and manage. Actors, who write, sing, produce, manage, act, and direct. Painters, who paint, draw, write, act, and sing. You get my point. Creative people do a lot, and that’s normal. I’m never surprised when I meet an actor who also pursues music, and fashion. I’m never surprised when I meet creative people period, because I am one.  *sigh* How much do we love telling people what we do? Personally, I call myself a professional get my life together-er.  If you can’t take what I really do seriously, take that.  I think  Creative people aren’t taken seriously because people tend to think that because you are not in the spotlight or because you are not making  big bucks, that you ain’t sh*t. (excuse my french)

Well, I CAME TO ENCOURAGE YOU TODAY! (lol) Hold your head up, and BE. You should never be ashamed of your dreams. So what if they’re common. So what if a lot of people don’t make it. YOU WILL! From  this moment, don’t allow friends, family, or PEOPLE YOU DON’T KNOW to judge you! Be happy and content with your decision to live out your dreams. 

So even if you don’t MAKE IT (whatever that means) you at least know that you came and you tried. BUT IM 100% CERTAIN that if you make up in your mind to PURSUE, and I mean REALLY PURSUE, with PASSION… you will CONQUER. Even if you’re not talented but you work hard,  you’ll still succeed.

And when you find yourself in a tough spot, alone. Know that you are not alone. There are a million of us out here that have experienced or is experiencing the same thing! So try to find comfort that whatever you’re doing has already been done before, it’s your job to do it BETTER! #thatisall

Okay…

This rain is getting to me! I’m waiting on UPS to deliver my package, thinking about life and what it entails. You know that’s always a joy! I’m thinking about my plays, my organization, and everything else. Ready to go—higher. I’ve been mulling and dragging my feet over what to do with the magazine, as well as my production company. Far as the name goes. I wasn’t very satisfied, and I wanted something less personal. But the more I think about it, and think about it… I’m happy being Classy.

With that said… I’m re-launching my website www.classybrown.com I will still blog here! But I’m going to open up a forum there for conversation. So… while I wait on UPS, I’m working on some other loose ends, and then I’ll start to work on that!

-Classy Brown